A book is the only place in which you can examine a fragile thought without breaking it, or explore an explosive idea without fear it will go off in your face. It is one of the few havens remaining where a man’s mind can get both provocation and privacy. ~Edward P. Morgan
My reinvention is not only meant to be be physical. I have spent quite a bit of time assessing my life, pinpointing areas of dissatisfaction or stagnancy. Am I where I thought I’d be? Am I doing the things that I had aspired to all those years ago? Life is not without it’s detours but did I end up in a place that works for me? Obviously as I am writing this blog and calling it a reinvention of me, then no….I am not where I wanted to be. This project of getting me there has taken several twists and turns but I have learned that so far, no one thing has been independent of another. Everything is related. I felt that my weight was the easiest to pinpoint as it’s physical manifestation was clearly apparent. But, what about friendships, interests, career? All of these things were affecting me and getting in the way of my happiness. They were also helping to stifle my motivation and block my ability to even attempt to reach my goals. So……to the library I went. I found an abundance of resources in the many books that I read. They helped me to define who I am and what I need to get myself in the right place for change.
I know it’s been used and referenced to over and over and OVER again but I do have a lot of faith in the “law of attraction” I remember one year all my sticky notes held a quote from one or another contributor of “The Secret“. I read “5 Wishes” by Gay Hendricks. I read “The Prayer Box” “Red Tent” and everything Mitch Albom. I read “Women are from Venus, Men are from Mars” Along with the dating sequel. I read “Women who love too Much” and started following Oprah and her many sites. I will continue to read as much as I can. The more I read, the more I absorb. The more I absorb, the more I grow…..
The worth of a book is to be measured by what you can carry away from it. ~James Bryce
Book lovers never go to bed alone. ~Author Unknown
“There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.” –Unknown
I hate to give up. I hate to give away and I hate to say good-bye. I know it’s normal and it’s the right thing to do but I truly despair at letting go. Doesn’t matter if it’s a pair of the most comfy old shoes that I wouldn’t dare be seen wearing in public or one of the kids’ notebooks that was from their freshman French class. I kept it because, who knows? one of us might someday be travelling to France and need to know French phrases. And then there are people. Let’s not get started on people. I hang on well past the point of diminished self-respect. Sometimes I’m not even sure why we’re still hanging together. Has it just become a habit? Are we too afraid to “unfriend” each other when we clearly have different values and no longer enjoy the same things? How about the end of a book? If it’s a really great book, I’m left longing for more. I sit there feeling lonely and bereft, missing my literary friends. That one I do have a solution for….write a bunch of sequels ad nauseam until I’m ready to scream “Uncle!”
“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.” – Dr. Seuss
Well, you can call me whatever you want….sentimental, a pack rat, the list goes on….but there is one thing I am very happy to lose….this extra body weight. Not shedding even a single tear as I watch it go away…..
“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.” – Lao Tzu
I also seem to be pretty good at giving away those baggy clothes (ok, there is admittedly a small twinge at giving away perfectly good clothing) Now, if only I could sew!
Part of this whole reinvention is about changing my life in all areas. While I clean up the clutter in my house, I get a perspective on how to clean up the clutter in the other areas of my life. My 2 biggest challenges at the moment are: being able to determine what is truly clutter and being able to let go………….
“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
― Marilyn Monroe